7 Mayıs 2009 Perşembe
I -Uyanış
Sanki yıllarca uyumuş gibi uyandım. Bütün bedenim tutulmuştu. Ayağa kalktığımda dengemi sağlayamadım, tekrar geri oturdum. İçinde olduğum bu yer hakkında hiçbir şey bilmediğimi farkettim. Bastığım yer topraktı. Yatağım alçak ve sertti. Dışarıyı görmeyişime rağmen kaosun kokularını alabiliyordum. Kadın ve çocukların panik içindeki bağırışmaları bu çadırımsı yapıdan içeri sızıyordu. Mevsimde bir sonbahar havası vardı. Isınmak için yakılan odun nefese dönüşen havaya güzel bir tat vermişti. Bastığım yerin serinliği ateş gibi yanan ayaklarım için bir uyanış hediyesi oldu. Uyandığım yerden öte , kendim hakkında da pek bir şey hatırlamıyordum. Nedense insan kendisi hakkındaki sorgulamaları en ön planda tutmuyor. Kendimi hatırlamadan da yaşamaya devam edebilirim sanırım. Düşünmek boş geldiğinde ayağa kalktım. İçeriye ışığı sızdıran çıkışın nerde olduğunu buldum ve ona doğru hareket ettim...
1 Mayıs 2009 Cuma
11- dead heart, in a dead world
to see the last survivor fall
to see their bastards sons against the wall
to see the emptiness as we decay
i see the world is dead, i am betrayed
dead heart in a dead world
dead heart in a dead world
this rotten hole that i call home bled dry again
this lesion marked upon my soul
left an empty hanging man
across the fields, into the sea
to find the light from within
out of this lake i've tried to crawl
i think i'm there and then again i fall
again i fall
burn your gods and kill the king
subjugate your suffering
dead heart, in a dead world
we must remember wounds so deep
take time to heal
and sometimes though we struggle still
life seems surreal
emotions turned to cold dead wood
can still have life once more
the door that slammed upon your heart
torn away, torn away
burn your gods and kill the king
subjugate your suffering
dead heart, in a dead world
burn your gods and kill the king
subjugate your suffering
dead heart, in a dead world
dead heart, in a dead world
to see their bastards sons against the wall
to see the emptiness as we decay
i see the world is dead, i am betrayed
dead heart in a dead world
dead heart in a dead world
this rotten hole that i call home bled dry again
this lesion marked upon my soul
left an empty hanging man
across the fields, into the sea
to find the light from within
out of this lake i've tried to crawl
i think i'm there and then again i fall
again i fall
burn your gods and kill the king
subjugate your suffering
dead heart, in a dead world
we must remember wounds so deep
take time to heal
and sometimes though we struggle still
life seems surreal
emotions turned to cold dead wood
can still have life once more
the door that slammed upon your heart
torn away, torn away
burn your gods and kill the king
subjugate your suffering
dead heart, in a dead world
burn your gods and kill the king
subjugate your suffering
dead heart, in a dead world
dead heart, in a dead world
10- believe in nothing
into a strange new world,into the after
all your tears might find you've fallen too far
take another look,take another ride
can't we make them leave the hate behind
and i still believe in nothing
will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?
into the empty storm,into the formless loss of hope,
where we can forget the game
and i still believe in nothing
will we ever see the cure for our sorrow
nothing is sacred when no one is saved
nothing's forever so count your days
nothing is final and no one is real
pray for tomorrow and find your empty still
nothing
all your tears might find you've fallen too far
take another look,take another ride
can't we make them leave the hate behind
and i still believe in nothing
will we ever see the shape of tomorrow?
into the empty storm,into the formless loss of hope,
where we can forget the game
and i still believe in nothing
will we ever see the cure for our sorrow
nothing is sacred when no one is saved
nothing's forever so count your days
nothing is final and no one is real
pray for tomorrow and find your empty still
nothing
09- insignificant
ours is not to question the reasons why
crippled indecision repeats the path i once denied
insignificant, am i?
the color of sundown, of crimson sky
the beauty that breaks down
and gives the day unto the night
and then one day you'll realize
just a speck in a spectrum
insignificant, am i?
and then one day, you'll realize
the beauty that breaks down
never learns the reason why
scan my horizon as blue turns to black
the sky is gone again
and all beneath are born to die
insignificant, am i?
and then one day you'll realize
just a speck in a spectrum
insignificant, am i?
and then one day, you'll realize
the beauty that breaks down
never learns the reason why
crippled indecision repeats the path i once denied
insignificant, am i?
the color of sundown, of crimson sky
the beauty that breaks down
and gives the day unto the night
and then one day you'll realize
just a speck in a spectrum
insignificant, am i?
and then one day, you'll realize
the beauty that breaks down
never learns the reason why
scan my horizon as blue turns to black
the sky is gone again
and all beneath are born to die
insignificant, am i?
and then one day you'll realize
just a speck in a spectrum
insignificant, am i?
and then one day, you'll realize
the beauty that breaks down
never learns the reason why
08- the sound of silence
hello darkness, my old friend,
i've come to talk with you again,
because a vision softly creeping,
left its seeds while i was sleeping,
and the vision that was planted in my brain
still remains
within the sound of silence.
in restless dreams i walked alone
narrow streets of cobblestone,
'neath the halo of a street lamp,
i turned my collar to the cold and damp
when my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
that split the night
and touched the sound of silence.
and in the naked light i saw
ten thousand people, maybe more.
people talking without speaking,
people hearing without listening,
people writing songs that voices never share
and no one dare
disturb the sound of silence.
"fools" said i, "you do not know
silence like a cancer grows.
hear my words that i might teach you,
take my arms that i might reach you."
but my words like silent raindrops fell,
and echoed
in the wells of silence
and the people bowed and prayed
to the neon god they made.
and the sign flashed out its warning,
in the words that it was forming.
and the sign said, "the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
and tenement halls."
and whisper'd in the sounds of silence.
i've come to talk with you again,
because a vision softly creeping,
left its seeds while i was sleeping,
and the vision that was planted in my brain
still remains
within the sound of silence.
in restless dreams i walked alone
narrow streets of cobblestone,
'neath the halo of a street lamp,
i turned my collar to the cold and damp
when my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light
that split the night
and touched the sound of silence.
and in the naked light i saw
ten thousand people, maybe more.
people talking without speaking,
people hearing without listening,
people writing songs that voices never share
and no one dare
disturb the sound of silence.
"fools" said i, "you do not know
silence like a cancer grows.
hear my words that i might teach you,
take my arms that i might reach you."
but my words like silent raindrops fell,
and echoed
in the wells of silence
and the people bowed and prayed
to the neon god they made.
and the sign flashed out its warning,
in the words that it was forming.
and the sign said, "the words of the prophets are written on the subway walls
and tenement halls."
and whisper'd in the sounds of silence.
07- engines of hate
can i be your personal demon
sit back absorb the words
and feast on my mind’s semen
can i be the devil on your shoulder
we all fall down as the world gets colder
i uncreate,i desecrate
i spit the truth into the engines of hate
can i be your chemical pariah
the world's such an ugly
it seems useless sometimes trying
will you watch the hate machine spin evil
or will you look away and plead apathy again
i uncreate, i desecrate
i spit the truth into the engines of hate
we sing into the sky on the production line
we are the holly swine,impurity defined
you can't ignore us anymore
you cannot judge us anymore
the sheep are made to follow
choke back the puke and swallow
the sheep are told to divide
the engines of hate still grind
i uncreate,i desecrate
i spit the truth into the engines of hate
sit back absorb the words
and feast on my mind’s semen
can i be the devil on your shoulder
we all fall down as the world gets colder
i uncreate,i desecrate
i spit the truth into the engines of hate
can i be your chemical pariah
the world's such an ugly
it seems useless sometimes trying
will you watch the hate machine spin evil
or will you look away and plead apathy again
i uncreate, i desecrate
i spit the truth into the engines of hate
we sing into the sky on the production line
we are the holly swine,impurity defined
you can't ignore us anymore
you cannot judge us anymore
the sheep are made to follow
choke back the puke and swallow
the sheep are told to divide
the engines of hate still grind
i uncreate,i desecrate
i spit the truth into the engines of hate
06- the heart collector
to see the actor without tears
dark rivers carve the years between the lines of self control
in my psychotic karmic fear, i own your tears anyway
and i am you and we are not afraid
and we won't be here for long
the heart collector
sings his song that's slowly boiling over
nevermore to feel the pain
the heart collector sang
and i won't be feeling hollow for so long
nevermore to feel the pain
the words fall out like fire
just believe when you can't believe anymore
the stage is empty now
i hope we hold and cannot allow
the corrupt eclectic takes his fatal blow
and we won't be here for long
the heart collector sings his song again
nevermore to feel the pain
the heart collector sang
and i won't be feeling hollow for so long
nevermore to feel the pain
the words fall out like fire
just believe when you can't believe anymore
dark rivers carve the years between the lines of self control
in my psychotic karmic fear, i own your tears anyway
and i am you and we are not afraid
and we won't be here for long
the heart collector
sings his song that's slowly boiling over
nevermore to feel the pain
the heart collector sang
and i won't be feeling hollow for so long
nevermore to feel the pain
the words fall out like fire
just believe when you can't believe anymore
the stage is empty now
i hope we hold and cannot allow
the corrupt eclectic takes his fatal blow
and we won't be here for long
the heart collector sings his song again
nevermore to feel the pain
the heart collector sang
and i won't be feeling hollow for so long
nevermore to feel the pain
the words fall out like fire
just believe when you can't believe anymore
05- the river dragon has come
today the warning came in the flood
architects and fools never cared for poor men's blood
cursed to repeat the past they are
the river dragon swims upstream
they've built another wall
the three will
save us from the flood
washed away we drown
the three will fall
the river dragon
has come
souls wash away
the earth has spoken and taken them to their graves
those who cannot remember the last
fall away,far away
the distance meets its task
the three will
save us from the flood
washed away we drown
the three will fall
the river dragon
has come
souls wash away
the earth has spoken and taken them to their graves
the river dragon has come
at first light of dawn
the earth has spoken
and in the crush they are gone
the three will
save us from the flood
washed away we drown
the three will fall
the river dragon
has come
souls wash away
the earth has spoken and taken them to their graves
in the mass destruction the bringer shows his form
technology the beast
the seventh crown
architects and fools never cared for poor men's blood
cursed to repeat the past they are
the river dragon swims upstream
they've built another wall
the three will
save us from the flood
washed away we drown
the three will fall
the river dragon
has come
souls wash away
the earth has spoken and taken them to their graves
those who cannot remember the last
fall away,far away
the distance meets its task
the three will
save us from the flood
washed away we drown
the three will fall
the river dragon
has come
souls wash away
the earth has spoken and taken them to their graves
the river dragon has come
at first light of dawn
the earth has spoken
and in the crush they are gone
the three will
save us from the flood
washed away we drown
the three will fall
the river dragon
has come
souls wash away
the earth has spoken and taken them to their graves
in the mass destruction the bringer shows his form
technology the beast
the seventh crown
04- evolution 169
welcome to the pleasure dome, now take a seat the crowd is watching you
just rats in this experiment
now learn the maze but don't tear yourself in two
don't let it pull you down
and one by one we crawl,and two by two
into the mouth of madness, we seek the perfect view
we reach another turn then fall out of time
in organized chaos
evolution 169
you can touch but never taste the answers
like the way that i want you
today i killed my ego, if hell is real
dear god please tie mynoose
and then he pulled me down
and one by one we crawl, and two by two
into the mouth of madness we seek the perfect view
we reach another turn then fall out of time
in organized chaos
evolution 169
and one by one we crawl, and two by two
into the mouth of madness, we fly away
don't set your mind to one side
don't set your mind to one side
just rats in this experiment
now learn the maze but don't tear yourself in two
don't let it pull you down
and one by one we crawl,and two by two
into the mouth of madness, we seek the perfect view
we reach another turn then fall out of time
in organized chaos
evolution 169
you can touch but never taste the answers
like the way that i want you
today i killed my ego, if hell is real
dear god please tie mynoose
and then he pulled me down
and one by one we crawl, and two by two
into the mouth of madness we seek the perfect view
we reach another turn then fall out of time
in organized chaos
evolution 169
and one by one we crawl, and two by two
into the mouth of madness, we fly away
don't set your mind to one side
don't set your mind to one side
03- inside four walls
inside four walls i live my life, doesn't matter what i've done
the governement's always right
they tell us what to be they tell us what to believe
they're wrong my friend is gone
inside four walls,
inside four walls
the day they took away my friend
injustice made it's mark
all the political whores only come out after dark
if anyone knows the way
build me a bridge so i won't fall astray
inside four walls,inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
and the pigs still preach their lies
the system falls apart
the pigs still laugh feeding off our broken lives
can anyone tell me why
some violent criminals do far less time?
inside four walls, inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
and the pigs still preach their lies
inside four walls, inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
and the pigs still preach their lies
inside four walls, inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
but they'll never take your mind
the governement's always right
they tell us what to be they tell us what to believe
they're wrong my friend is gone
inside four walls,
inside four walls
the day they took away my friend
injustice made it's mark
all the political whores only come out after dark
if anyone knows the way
build me a bridge so i won't fall astray
inside four walls,inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
and the pigs still preach their lies
the system falls apart
the pigs still laugh feeding off our broken lives
can anyone tell me why
some violent criminals do far less time?
inside four walls, inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
and the pigs still preach their lies
inside four walls, inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
and the pigs still preach their lies
inside four walls, inside four walls my friend
they took away your freedom
but they'll never take your mind
02 - we disintegrate
within the dark communion of self awareness
there lies a void called ego
an endless fusion of stillness and chaos
to bring its death can bring rebirth
i want to freeze the time
(dissolve into gray)
as we disintegrate the light
let the rain come down,
let the solitude surround
i want to change the lines
and purify the divide
are we ever free or slaves to technology
outside the fallen walls of pride and prejudice
there is a voice that speaks in circles
empty illusions still fall before us
there is no future so profess your pain
there lies a void called ego
an endless fusion of stillness and chaos
to bring its death can bring rebirth
i want to freeze the time
(dissolve into gray)
as we disintegrate the light
let the rain come down,
let the solitude surround
i want to change the lines
and purify the divide
are we ever free or slaves to technology
outside the fallen walls of pride and prejudice
there is a voice that speaks in circles
empty illusions still fall before us
there is no future so profess your pain
01 - narcosynthesis
hypnotize me, mesmerize me
drain the color from my eyes
patronize me, energize me
change the world, internalize
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
alienate me, learn to hate me
crucify your ideals the flesh is the swine
we are the last ones and we're bleeding
for an unseen god
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul
victimize me, vilify me
vilipend and amend the sins you condign
vou are nothing and you speak for
all that never was
turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul
vou are nothing and you speak for
all that never was
turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul
drain the color from my eyes
patronize me, energize me
change the world, internalize
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
alienate me, learn to hate me
crucify your ideals the flesh is the swine
we are the last ones and we're bleeding
for an unseen god
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
how did it come to this,
narcosynthesis
turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul
victimize me, vilify me
vilipend and amend the sins you condign
vou are nothing and you speak for
all that never was
turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul
vou are nothing and you speak for
all that never was
turn my blood to sand
lives fall through the hourglass and grow cold
what are you searching for?
turn my dirt to gold
time the healer the great concealer
please salvage my soul
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